NO MAN's LAND

School finished at 2 today... after sch went __@!@#^&*()%$%^*

then go tamp mall to meet rb, meihui and zoe.. ate swensens!!! weeeeeeeee
had my all-time-favourite mac n cheeze... weeee... didnt eat gold rush though =( .. neh mind.. lol

after tat went to WORK...
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At this point of time, i really nid to let out EVERYTHING that i've been thinking about uh.. and so, i'm not gonna mention names.. go and guess for all i care....
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I dun freakin care wadeva u wan to do... but hey.. be grateful.. u get to see him b4 he close his eyes... come on' lets be frank.. he's oreadi lived till golden age.. how long more can he survive?? he's gt chronic disease manx!! he loved u.. so please, dont do this to everyone.. it hurts.. again and again .. we helped u.. helped u survive.. not wanting u to have a totally RUINed future... but again and again.. wad we received are all REGRETION... please... have some faith in yourself...
In my entire life.. neva did i heard him saying 'dier anak tiri aku' .. NEVER!!!! and u.. urself have gt no faith... defying him every now and then... WTH u trying to show?!!! he guided u with all his strength.. and i can see he's disappointed....
i wish u all the best... remember.. have faith....



and to THAT person...

somehow i feel that u are trying to avoid me.. due to wadeva reasons tat i dun knw of... and at times, i feel tat u are trying to convey a message to me... our friendship are not built for lyke a decade or something.. but time doesnt matter dude..
I can easily get along with u.. coz we have the same attitude towards things... we see things at the same angle.. same thoughts... and have the same lifestyle...
wadeva... i'm confused... i dunno wad i shud do... and wad i shud nt do.... just wonder why i t0ok the effort to compromise everything...
but wad i definitely wish for.. is to hav the memories happening again...

and to THAT person.......

are u confused?? in the past, i'm right infront of u... helping u ... and wen u have conflicts with ur frens.. i was thr.... listening... and wen u hav no one to go to the movies with u.. i was there... spending my time just for it.. wen u wan to skip classes, i was there.. spending the time wif u...
i did all these, coz i dun wan u to feel lonely.. i did all of those despite tat i hav lots of assignment to do its bcoz i cared... but i hate it.. wen u just put me aside wen ur friends are back wif u... wen u've resolved ur conflicts... wadeva.. it has been years... i'm immuned to it.. but.. i'm letting it go bit by bit.... it hurts to be cast aside... for god sake, please... i dont treat u as a passerby... neither did i HAVE TREATED u like a NOBODY in my life b4 .... i was t0o close to u... i was overlooked.. yes.. OVERLOOKED... i guess wad i said b4 was right...

" To improve the situation and to know a person better, I shouldn't be too close to them. I will overlook certain things and I will be overlooked. Be it the minor ones or the main ones. Neither should I be far far away from them. I will be forgotten. I should be far from them. Far enough to see the big picture. and thats wen i know. Where i stood and whats the situation was like."

and now.. i'm moving away... trying to get the entire picture... hopefully...